Did you really sit down and follow the steps I suggested last week?
I really, really hope you did
(if you didn't, that's ok. Maybe try it this week!)
If you did, it means
you put yourself OUT THERE.
You took a step.
You were willing to step out, without knowing
the whats and whys.
That took courage and guts.
You just DID IT.
Because. Just because.
It also means you were truly WILLING to make a change.
Some of you don't know me at all,
but there is something you are looking for
something you are wanting
something you are wanting to change
or let go of
and your CHOICE to try the gum, as I suggested
means you are at a place in YOUR life,
where you are earnestly, assertively
Following your heart
Willingly moving away from the old
and into the new.
I am crazy proud of you.
Maybe you didn't even realize what you were doing
(and still don't know why)
but on some level,
you were willing to invest in the hope
that it wasn't a waste of time,
that there would indeed, be a pay off.
And there was a pay off.
You, took a step toward feeding yourself.
You changed your breath
You changed the environment of your mouth
You refreshed yourself
Your taste buds got a wake-up
Your teeth and your jaw, got a workout
You fed your curiosity
You made yourself pause and think and reflect and express
Hopefully it gave you a little pleasure
Maybe even made you feel good about yourself, because
You Did Something For Yourself.
Here's what it didn't do:
Cost you much
Make you feel guilty
Blow some diet
Take away from your husband or children
That minty fresh feeling you had,
The flavor wore off.
And, if you followed it with a gulp of water,
even the softness disappeared
The pleasure and freshness of biting into that candy shell and
FEELING the gum
EXPERIENCING the jolt of mint,
Tasting, smelling and breathing in the ESSENCE of the gum,
had a short life span.
YOU are much like that gum.
You will (and maybe have already)
Lose your freshness and your flavor will fade
If you do not
consistently refresh yourself.
The chewing of your teeth, the working of your jaws
is like the daily grind of living.
The work of mothering
The tasks of housekeeping
The duties of wife-ing, volunteer-ing, friend-ing, family-ing and career-ing
The gulp of water that made the gum tough and unworkable?
That's the reality of life. Disillusionment. Sacrifice. Loss. Burnout.
Financial Hardship, Marital Strife, Long-term Singleness, Loneliness
I am not the type who can chew a piece of gum after it loses its flavor
but, there are some of you who can.
Some, can chew and chew and chew,
until their gum turns gray and tastes like cardboard.
I propose, here and now, that that's what a lot of us are doing
in our lives.
That is how we are living
We're being chewed
and losing our flavor.
We are gray
and we taste like cardboard.
In fact, sometimes,
we have no taste
We are simply doing
and being chewed.
And some of us, aren't even miserable
or feeling unhappy.
Some of us are ok with all the work.
The stress and strain.
The pace of our lives.
For some of us, gray is ok,
because on some level
It defines us.
or never felt
what it was like
Ah, but I am here to tell you
(and please believe me)
(some of you are hoping this.
longing for this,
but are afraid to really believe this)...
There. Is. More.
There is more to this life,
than the chewing.
There is flavor to experience
and refreshment to taste
and an entirely different environment in which to live...
I received an email from one of the women who's been paying attention to what I've been writing.
She noted what she called an "addiction to food."
Others have mentioned in writing, that they are "Emotional Eaters"
And one friend alluded to her struggle as "knowing this is about my relationship with food."
Ahhhh...all of them are close,
close to the truth.
And maybe, it is their truth.
But that was NOT my truth.
It would almost be easier,
if the answer to weight loss, were about food.
Then we could all just eat the right food.
In right portions.
Combined with the right amount of cardio...
and be happy when the weight disappeared
and Never Gain Back an Ounce.
I believe it's harder than that
Bigger than that
Deeper than that
Much, much, much sadder than that.
I do NOT think it is about our relationship with Food.
I think, believe and KNOW (at least for, me)
That it is about:
My Relationship with My Self.
That is what we'll tackle...
For now, while you are waiting,
I ask you to do the following:
1) Put on your lipstick (or gloss or balm)
(I'll explain that part Next Time, too)
2) Pull out your notebook and turn to the next blank page. Number 1-10 down the left-hand margin. Across the top of the blank page, write the names of four women you know, plus your own name, forming columns. Pick any four women. You may all play tennis together, live in the same neighborhood, have kids in the same school, attend the same church, or have attended the same college. Or, you may choose four random women with no visible connection whatsoever. Create a chart-of-sorts, filling in the following information for each woman (as best you can):
1) Marital Status
2) Car they drive
3) Their hair color
5) Number of children
6) One word describing their personality
7) The state where they were born
8) Coffee, tea or Diet Drink they use to begin their day
9) Siblings (how many, if you know)
10) Career or Stay-at-Home
3) Turn again, to the first page of your notebook (where you have ALREADY written: STOP EATING. START FEEDING MYSELF). In the upper right hand corner, print:
This is not about my relationship with food.
It is about my relationship with My Self.
4) Pop in a piece of chewing gum whenever you want to from now until Friday (That's when I'll post again and get you ready for the weekend). As you chew, THINK about THIS BLOG POST. Ask yourself if it makes sense, how it applies to you, how it doesn't apply. Add your thoughts to the BACK of the page you wrote on when you tried the gum for the first time, a few days ago.
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And for those who are really wanting TIPS and Things to DO to lose weight
Here are a couple of my sure things:
* Feed yourself all of your food in the first 12 hrs after you wake up. STOP EATING after your dinner! Just stop it. Decide to stop. And then stop.
* Split your meals with your oldest child or spouse. This saves money when you eat out. My son gets almost 2/3 of whatever I order. I get what I want, but he gets to finish it.
* (Or) ask for a To-Go box as soon as your server brings your meal. Put half in the box and take it home. That half = TWO fantastic lunches at your place!
* Make a list of what you purchase at the grocery store and post it on your frig. This way you know what is in your cabinets and pantry and you will be LESS likely to open the door and start GRAZING or searching for something to eat. REFER to the list and KNOW what you want to feed yourself BEFORE you open that door.
Be Your Best,